One big thing accomplished

Roma is registered for classes and at school. It took two trips to get it done because we didn't take his passport along first time and they needed it for proof of his birth date. Also the exchange program hadn't sent all the immunization records so they had to fax them over before the school would finalize his enrollment.

I felt nervous leaving him there, like a mom with a kindergartner. Funny thing is, I am very hands-off with my own children. I make them do all their own school stuff; forms, registration, scheduling and the like, and just sign whatever I need to sign to finalize it (and seem to write a lot of checks). I felt more protective of him, I guess because he just arrived and even though his English is really good, I worry.

I still feel so stressed about the rest of the day and leading up to surgery tomorrow. Will had to go out of town for a funeral today. He is supposed to call me when he gets back tonight. I hope it is not too late because I made him promise to just tell me all kinds of positive things about how easy surgery will be and how strong I am and other nice things to calm me down. I am so frightened of anesthesia and needles and being incapable of caring for myself. I know this is outpatient surgery and supposed to be a quick recovery, but there are so many extra things happening at the same time I believe my fears are exacerbated. I think today I will probably have to take the tranquilizers that I have been counseled to use as needed, even though I hate them. I have an ache in my gut just thinking about what will be happening in the next twenty-four hours, and also feel like my breathing is so shallow I am not getting enough air.

So I guess today I should be happy for Ativan, even though I hate taking it.