Monday, October 31, 2011


can save lives.

I am grateful for Netflix. I am grateful for the amazingly talented people who write and produce The Office. I think that right now if I truthfully and fully felt the amount of physical pain and mental anguish that is really inside me I would despair of ever having a normal life.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Yeah, baby!

I am grateful for people who stand up for their rights and have the courage to do do, even when it is not convenient.

Saturday, October 29, 2011


Today I am grateful that Debbie was able and willing to bring some Sprite and pretzels to me. I am frustrated what it was necessary. Last Friday and today this headache morphed into the dreaded PUKING MIGRAINE. After so long I can't remember twice in eight days is way too much. I've basically has this headache continually since October 7th. The headache, too many painkillers, not sleeping and nightmares is wearing me down.

I'm supposed to be trying the EFT tapping for my headaches, to promote restful, peaceful sleep and for positive affirmations. Maybe I am a wimp, but it just feels SO HARD to have ONE MORE THING I am supposed to be doing. I am overwhelmed. I've had massage, chiropractic, Reiki, baths, lots of water, herbal teas... I can't even think what else. Gillian took me for a walk in the fresh air... Oh yeah - Thursday I had the migraine "aura" so intensely I thought I was having a stroke. I am pretty sure I haven't had that in years. I think that is why it took so long for me to realize what it was. I feel like I am about at the end of my rope. It seems like every week there is one day when I say if it doesn't get better I am going to go to Promptcare the next day - then the next day it is tolerable until it gradually becomes horrific again.

Friday, October 28, 2011


I am SO happy and grateful for my knitting looms. I am trying a doll. It will either be the sweetest, cuddly thing ever or like a scary clown that will eat children in the night.

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Yep, once more with feeling!

Tonight I am grateful that Michael is too cheap to spend money at the laundry mat. He'd rather ride MILES home in a cold rain and do his laundry HERE with ME. I stopped at the store on the way home and bought a little food for here and A LOT of goodies to make a big pot of (vegetarian) chili for the Occupants. I really didn't want to leave the house tonight so I will make it either tomorrow or at least by Saturday. At least soon their lack of refrigeration will be solved! Brrr. I would not like the idea of camping in the winter with no campfire. I guess that is why I show my support with food - I'm too selfish to sacrifice my own comfort, but I'm nice enough to cook for them. a little. when I feel like it. when I have money (kinda). when it's convenient. when...

I bought melatonin to try for my insomnia. I probably should have waited for the weekend to try the first time. I hear it packs a wallop. We shall see.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Gratitude, Dude!

Today I am VERY, VERY grateful for Gillian and her loving assistance. I also like that she was brave enough to suggest it could be caused by some of my anxiety about the transformation I am undertaking.

I am grateful for Scrabble, both online and in real life.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011


I am grateful that Michael is such a nice person. He humors me when I am silly or sentimental and I really appreciate it. I wanted him to listen to me sing tonight and he did and didn't make fun of my bad notes - and I usually hit some humdingers!

Positive affirmation - I am tired tonight and I expect that the fatigue combined with a certain satisfaction with the day's activities will help me be calm and relaxed and sleep well tonight. I was gifted today with the opportunity to learn to use my creative skills for making something needed and useful.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Positive affirmations and gratitude.

I am grateful for my gray hair! It has texture and body and holds a curl. Before my hair was gray it was stick straight. It is much easier to dye hair than it is to make straight hair curly!

I am grateful for Facebook. I have really used it to restart friendships and to keep in touch better with people. I believe I am very good at translating Facebook into real life action and not leaving it at the shallow level.