Yawn...

So tired. Work was borrific today. I sat and read so many articles on xojane it was crazy.

I did my class and then swam 600 meters tonight.

Then I went to Dollar General because I like the salsa they have.

Then I went to Kroger to get other stuff.

Then I went to Wendy's and bought chili for dinner.

Then I came home and ate it.

Now I have to put the groceries away and go. to. bed.

Erik is coming over to start working on the house tomorrow.  He's actually a handyman sort of guy so he can help me with some stuff around the house instead of me paying Dave hundreds of dollars to do it. Yay. (Too tired for an exclamation point)

Surely Shirley!

I've been tracking my food intake, exercise, and weight on My Fitness Pal for almost a month. I usually go over my calories. I've lost 2.8 pounds. I need to exercise more often. My duration is good when I do it, but so far I only do it when I have my class, which is three days a week. Also the past two weeks I've missed one of those days. Last week it was a motivation problem crossed with way freezing temps and this week was helping my sick younger offspring get meds and stuff. I think my goal for the next thirty days need to be: cut my sweet snacks because that is what makes my calories go over, and I need to add at least one more day to my exercise, even if it is just doing my yoga video. My weight today was 200.2. Surely, Surely, Shirley, I can get down to 195 in the next month, right?!

I will be getting a couple of roommates soon, at least for awhile. A man named Erik (I don't know if he has a k, but I like it!) and his son Eli, will be moving in sometime in the next few days. They need to have a space with two full bedrooms so Erik can file an emergency custody change to get Eli with him full time. He has the "crazy ex" thing going on and needs to get Eli out of the bad situation. Erik came over today while I was home sick with a migraine/sinus ouchy headache. We looked at the family room aka the purple room formerly known as Emily's room to see what needs to be done to it to make it an acceptable little boy bedroom. Erik will have to do most of the work because I will be at work and exercising and I have some baking to do in the next few days also. Probably as soon as Monday CPS will come over to make sure there is a good, safe space for Eli. It's a good weekend that I am not going to go visit Carmel. I am a little bit wary because I am enjoying living alone so much. I recall, however, that one of the things I thought about getting a house is that I will share my space with others who need it. The past few times have tended to be the crazy part of the equation. I'm glad this time I am housing the other side of the coin with a  "pretty chill" (Michael quote) guy.

It's yesterday, really!

Meaning, yep it's after midnight, but I have neither blogged nor gone to bed yet.

Whew! I went up to Carmel Friday night after the YMCA. It was mahvelous, of course. We took the girls to what was supposed to be story time at Barnes and Noble, but they don't really have it anymore. We played with the babies with the toys and the puppets, which was a hoot! There was a pretty realistic dog puppet and Zoe was in love. She threw her arms around it and really hugged it several times.

Well, this.

You can see why I love spending my time with them!

I returned home early Sunday so I could drive up north AGAIN to attend a play in Beech Grove. It is a two man cast, called Mass Appeal. One of my castmates from Mockingbird was the older priest. It was pretty good, and then Gretchen, my friend /carpool buddy and I also went out with the cast and crew afterward. Of course I had turned off my cell phone for the performance and I didn't turn it back on until I was getting ready to go to bed, about 1am... There's a series of voice mails...

Michael - Mom, I took Tylenol and my fever is not going down, should I take some more?
Michael - something unintelligible (this is a common problem for us)
Edwin (roommate type) - Michael is really sick so we're taking him to the um... doctor, yeah to the doctor.
Michael - I'm in the hospital waiting for tests.
Michael - I'm in room (unintelligible), (something else unintelligible) I don't have Heather and Emily's numbers and they might need to know (lots of unintelligible)

SO - I look at my phone and the number displayed when Edwin called was Shaina's (another roommate type) I called her because I don't know if Michael is in hospital, awake, etc.

She said it was only the emergency room, he was never admitted, that in fact, he's upstairs eating vegetable lo mein right now. She told me the saga that Michael's fever got so high he passed out at the top of the stairs and fell all the way down. She thought his legs were broken because he was so tangled up. He came to and they decided he wasn't broken so they got him back upstairs and he promptly passed out again. They decided they could take him to the hospital and save a thousand bucks so they took him in. It turns out he just has really, really bad strep throat.  He's on mega antibiotics, and codeine cough syrup and loads of ibuprofen.  I took over soup and Gatorade and sudafed and such. I offered for him to come home and stay but he doesn't want to. He usually sleeps in a shack that is unheated and has no water and does all his other stuff at Ghosthouse (that's why Edwin and Shaina are merely roommate types and not full roommates). He's been pretty sick for a couple of weeks and has been staying over there a lot more, on a couch, but he doesn't have a real bedroom. Tonight they are having a house concert, probably hard-core punk, so he's sleeping at some other house so he can rest, but STILL doesn't want to some home. At least he's in a real house with heat (of course it's 60 degrees today and tomorrow!, damn Indiana)

SO - babies are cute, plays are good and Michael is sick, but cared for by many.

And now, I must retire.

and when I check the "friends" label tonight I include the inhabitants of Ghosthouse, because what better friends than to help take care of my younger offspring when I am off gallivanting around with those shady theater people!

Let's face it.

Madeline is tired, too!

I'm tired!

I remember going to the drive in and seeing this movie when I was 6 or 7 and LOVED this scene! I had no idea what the song was about. We saw so many movies at the drive in in Richmond. It was right across the street from Frisch's and Dad would come over after he closed up for the night. My favorite movie that we saw was probably The Andromeda Strain or maybe The Omega Man. I have read them both now and really enjoyed the books, too. I've also read a lot of other Michael Crichton and enjoyed most of it.  My parents had no filters as to what was age appropriate. I could see or read anything I wanted. In some ways that was great, in others, not so good. It was just another reflection of how many ways there were no boundaries or skewed boundaries at most, in my growing up. It made it hard when I was a parent, to know the balance for my children. 

Back in the saddle (water)

I made it to the pool tonight, did my class with devotion and then swam 600 meters.  I rock. I am so tired. I made a list of things to do and it is just the bare minimum I need to do to complete this day and be somewhat ready for tomorrow. I might have to get creative with what to take for lunch. I think I have some peanut butter and I have celery left from making the stuffing for dinner last night. That might just be lunch! If I had the energy to bake I could make some of the baked oatmeals, but I. am. too. tired. Maybe tomorrow I can bake them, when I won't have class. I keep thinking I will go to Panache and try a dancefit class and see how my knee feels and how I handle it, but I have been so tired all the time I kind of want the days off. I just know it's good to mix it up a little and do different movements. I also enjoyed the people there a lot when I did it all the time before, before, before...the KNEE INCIDENT.
Maybe next week. :)

Sleepy...

I'm a little bit worried because of the amount of sleeping I have done the past few days. It reminds me a little of where I was maybe two years (guessing) ago when my major daily accomplishment was getting out of bed and getting to work and that was ALL I could do. Since Sunday that is about where I am. Tomorrow I am going to FORCE myself to go to the water class and swim. I guess I have also been cooking homemade food. Maybe it's not as bad as it was at that time.

I made roasted brussels sprouts for the first time tonight. I have never liked them before until a couple of years ago Whryne made them this way and I liked them. Then some of the women at work talked about the brussel sprouts in their stinky lunches. I bought some last week at Trader Joe's and finally got around to making them tonight. Pretty yummy, plus the baby cabbages are cruciferous vegetables that are full of good phytochemical compounds that fight cancer.  Brussels Sprouts for everyone! Now I will take my own stinky lunch tomorrow.

Oh, my aching feet!

Just a short report.

It's fucking cold here, so cold they put the schools on a two hour delay for tomorrow already. Everybody always thinks it's so the children won't have to stand out in the cold, but it's really because it takes the buses that long to warm up enough to drive and steer.

My feet were so swollen today I had to take my socks off because they were cutting into my legs and my shoes hurt my feet. I haven't had that for a long, long time. It probably would have been good for them to go to the Y and get in the pool, but I was so whiney and it's so cold I couldn't handle it. I came home and went to bed. I got up around 7:00 and cooked some chili. Now I've eaten and I am going to go back to bed very soon. I also took two pills of diuretics so I hope that will work. I haven't taken any for weeks! I'm really frustrated that they are swelling again.

I'm going to go wash my dinner dishes and pack lunch for tomorrow and then head to bed. I might play in bed and go on FB or something, but probably not for too long.

Good night.

To sleep, perchance to dream.

Last night I went out to Renee's (Whyne's) birthday party. She throws herself a pretty big birtrhday party each year, and this was her 40th... so She and Breshaun rented the downstairs room of the Bishop bar and Mose the DJ did a show. Breshaun made a ton of food and others contributed and of course, there was a full bar upstairs.

I spent the entire day baking bread and I was actually so tired I contemplated not going. I hadn't been outside all day, but it sounded windy. I decided if the temperature was above 40 I would go. It was 50, so I took a shower and got dressed. This was Renee's party right, so I knew the ordinary wouldn't do. I kind of did the ordinary and then added on a little bit, something that had only before been seen by an audience of one...

my fishnet stockings!

I felt wild, but this is another woman...

(and Whryne)
and this is what David Ernst wore

Kind of like your everyday Rocky Horror Picture Show cast, just for fun.

It turned out I was completely in the mood for dancing. I danced almost the entire time I was there, even when I was the only one out on the floor! I had to sit down every once in a while to rest my feet and I noshed a little, but really for about three hours I was moving most of the time.

SO...today I slept, I slept, I slept. I ended up going to bed about 2:30, I awakened the first tie about 5:30 with a terrible headache, took Benedryl and Tylenol with caffeine. Even with the caffeine I went back to sleep until Gillian called about picking up their bread, about 9:30, I think. I got up and made labels and packaged the bread and about 11:30 I thought they forgot and lay back down. Then they got here... Right after they left I went back to bed about noon, then slept until almost 7:30 tonight! I had bizarre dreams, not the really terrifying nightmares of sometimes, but disturbing ones, plane crash where a man's head got scraped off, trying to call 911 and frustrated (as usual!) etc.

So tonight I delivered a loaf of bread, talked to Charlie on the phone, made laundry detergent, ate, watched stuff and I plan to try to get to bed by midnight, which is very soon. I hope I can sleep. I hope that the day sleeping today was tired from last night and catch up and it won't disturb my sleep cycle. We will see.

I am glad I went out last night. I didn't really meet new people, but I did see some I hadn't seen for a while and danced and enjoyed myself and did something a little out the ordinary for these days and it was good.

Baking Bread

of which I will not eat one bite.

It's been a year since I decided to eat gluten free. To tell the truth I will have to say it has been reduced gluten, not gluten free. I will still eat bread when I eat out, and a couple of times I have had a serious pasta craving and fulfilled it.

During the past year...

The best scientific thing I have read that supports the idea is that wheat is not the same as it used to be. It has had generations of selective breeding and now is GMO to make it contain much more (I can't remember the %) gluten than it used to. This makes it more suited to commercial baking.

The most significant things about my own health I have noticed are...

I automatically eat fewer carbs. I have not replaced bread or pretzels or cakes and cookies with other carb rich foods. I have done some of my own baking and cooking with alternative flours, but I have not purchased a lot of commercially prepared products. Most of them are rice flour, tapioca flour and other flours that are highly processed and simple carbs, unlike the whole grain flour products I prefer.

When I do go mostly without and then indulge I can see the effects. I get constipated, badly - as in don't poop for a week, become bloated and in pain constipated. If I do this prunes are my friends.

I feel like my joint issues become much worse when I consume gluten. When I had the UU dinner group last week I ate bread, bread stuffing, and cake. Yesterday my knees and hips ached so badly I had to take ibuprofen.

I haven't noticed that gluten is a direct headache trigger. I will say, however, that I have had headaches with less frequency and lower intensity than previously. I did make a label on here for headache triggers that I am going to try to watch.

All in all, I think an effort to reduce the gluten is worth it. It keeps me mindful of my eating and has helped me in the ways above.

Pot Poory

So tonight at the Y I caught myself trying to check surreptitiously and see if women shave or wax their pubes. I'm old school, I guess. I just can't figure out why and how. One woman was totally smooth, probably waxed. I really think it makes one look like a child, which then seems kind of icky to me. I think I can understand if one is Muslim or something and it's considered unclean, but, yeah, no, I don't think I'll ever go for that.

Tonight I did my class and them swam 500 meters. Once I'm swimming I'm so happy, but I have to play mind games to make it happen. When I was walking out of work today I almost threw up, just some kind of spasmic accident. I thought, oh good. I can just go home and crawl into bed, really, I'm sick! Then I had to talk myself out of it... like no, I haven't been nauseous like I was when I was sick, it was just a throat spasm, yes, you need to go swim, no you can't miss a class because it will be too hard to go back, these women fought to have this class be on Friday night, you have to show you are a part of that dynamic who will attend.... etc. Then when it was the end of class and I had my pool noodle (best date I've had for a while!) I didn't want to get out to put it away because I was afraid once I got out I wouldn't swim laps, then I remembered I still had earrings in and really I should take them out and set them on the window ledge, but I told myself swimming these laps is more important than protecting a million dollar pool filter! Don't get out! And I didn't. And I swam. And they stayed in. and I survived, and I'm tired, but not sickly, and I rock. Then end.

Phew!

Dinner for 6 (became 5, someone was ill) is accomplished. I joined UU Fellowship Dinners group. A coordinator mixes different people and asks if you can host. This was my first one, and I was asked to host! I bought a couple of really nice chickens at our real local butcher and roasted them with rosemary and thyme from the garden and sage from the little Farmer's Market. I made a really pretty winter table setting - I took photos, of course. The rest of the dinner was pitch-in. We had salad, mashed potatoes (and I whipped up a quick gravy), bread and lime coconut cake. I don't usually like lime, but the cake was pretty good.  I had Barb Lund, a wonderful potter, Elof and Nedra Carlson, and Linda Pickle, her husband Charlie was the sicko. I had met Barb before, buying a piece from her, but that is all. I met Elof because he is the organizer of the book club that I never attend, but sometimes read the books.

I love that the table cloth and the ribbon have snowflakes on them. I used the clear dishes just because they look so good. 

Devoted, I am!

Devoted enough to get back out of my warm bed to come write. Maybe if I were truly devoted I wouldn't have forgotten in the first place.

I do want to mention at least briefly that I had nightmares again last night. It was a long nightmare about terrible floods. We lived in Terre Haute and we were driving and saw the storm coming that blew down a water tower and was crashing into buildings.... there was a whole lot of really complicated stuff with houses and characters and story lines. The main thing was I got separated from Michael and I awakened right after I found him. He was helping with storm recovery, only he was helping a Boy Scout Troop and not the revolutionary forces like he would be in real life.

I'm pretty sure it is based somewhat on the actual flooding here, especially because of the flooded basement over the weekend. Also Michael is in a big change period and I worry about him. I worry a lot about bi-polar surfacing in a negative way when he is in big changes or stress. So far, even though he admits he has it, and claims to have been on the verge of something big, nothing big has ever happened. Also I have had recurring dreams about him drowning or being lost is murky water. This cream wasn't surprising, in that sense. It's length and complicated plots and huge number of characters, however is new. Maybe it's just because his life is different than ever before. He has his own group of friends and associates and it is really different from the socially awkward person he was. Michael would resent all my use of the masculine pronouns here. They prefer for me to use the non-gendered plural, but it is really hard for me!

Lord, I was born a Travelin' Maa-aan

but I didn't learn how to log into my blog away from home first! Often when I have blogged daily if I traveled I either blogged on paper (aka journaling) or found another method. I thought I would borrow Lisa's laptop and blog, but I couldn't remember my password to log in on another computer!

So here's a summary:

Friday: I arrived at Lisa and John's late, after they had gone to bed. I was pleasantly surprised to find a gift on my pillow. Lisa had a key to the house made for me! I felt so loved and welcome. That way I can get in easily when I arrive late and she explained that I am welcome to stay also when they are out of town or anything. Carmel is a nice city, but there was a series of burglaries last year, so it is better to keep the house locked up.

After my water class I swam 200 meters. It's really very little swimming, but honestly the water aerobics, and resistance exercises are really rough! I also spoke to the instructor and another class member in the locker room after class and found that this is a long-term, ongoing class and they also try to go out to dinner once in a while to get a chance to talk and know each other. It makes me happy to know I have found another place to build community.

Saturday:

Day without leaving the 116th street haven. Ahhh! Stayed home and played with babies. John brought home Chinese take-away for lunch when he got off work. Chloe walked 22 steps and Lisa got the last half of it on video. Zoe walks around on her knees. It's funny. Fed them, played with them, cleaned up after them, knitted, and after the babies went to bed I watched my first episode of "Modern family." Liked it all.

Last night was a horrible rainstorm. I had nightmares through the night and slept in fits and starts. I had a dream that would start back up again every time I went back to sleep in which my brother Chris was molesting a four year old girl and I was trying to save her, but I was still terrified of him.  It was epic and involved things like living in a trailer, trying to accomplish certain tasks and failing and fear and blech! As I was up and down in the night I logged onto Facebook on the Kindle and saw that Charis and Stephanie's house had flooded. I was able to tell them to come here to get fans to help it dry out and offered to them to stay here if they needed. They did come get the fans at about 4:00 am, but were able to still sleep in their upstairs.

Today I stayed until the babies went down for morning nap and then met Heather and Ian after they got out of church. We drove up to Lafayette and visited Dad in the nursing home. He is MUCH better than he was two weeks ago. He told us he is ready to go to the Veteran's Home so he will be closer to Mom. We went to go get her to take her to lunch and then planned to go back to the apartment and work on organizing it some more and to help her find the papers for the veteran's home admission. While we were eating lunch it started raining ice. Sigh. So we just took Mom back to the apartment and got on the road. I am a nervous passenger, anyway, still have PTSD from the car wreck in High School (Lisa is my car wreck buddy, how's that for back story?). I had some homeopathic nerve tonic in my bag, so popped some of that and then went to sleep. When we arrived in Indy I awakened and the ice storm was over and the streets were merely WET. I was still able to go to Trader Joe's and shop and then went home. At TJ's I couldn't find my debit card and the young cashier said, "Oh, my mom does that all the time." I just looked at him and said, "Oh my God. I'm just like somebody's mother." Even though he's the same age as my children, early 20s, I feel like it's sad that he recognizes me as that old!

So then I took some of the food over to Michael at Ghosthouse and visited him. He's been sick for several days and had in fact, called me earlier today and asked me to take him to the doctor. It might be just his annual, get sick, go to the doctor, pay $200 for tests, and be told for him to eat more calories and try to get more sunlight. I got a start on the more calorie thing...

Now I need to get started. One bad thing about going to Carmel on weekends that I come back and still need to do laundry and stuff to be ready for the week to start. Now I also need to be sure to have my lunch and gym bag packed to prevent eating out and to ensure class attendance. Gotta be organized because NO EXCUSES!

Girls' NIght

Was a washout this week. Oh well, it will happen again!

I'm way too mellow tonight when I need to be packing lunch, packing for gym, packing for the weekend. I just feel kind of like sitting around and listening to music or watching shows and knitting. I am going to have to implement the 10 minute method to get anything accomplished. Going to the Y, going to see Lisa and the babies, and eating good food are all important to me in the long run, so I need to focus on those desires.

Ready, set, go! 1st 10 minutes NOW.

Imagine Clever Title Here!

I know while I was in Water Class tonight I thought of different titles for a post and now I can't remember any!


Tonight was the perfect example of my psychoses about food and fat and weight. I had an hour to kill in between work and my class at the Y. I was sorely tempted to go get junk food. It was sort of legitimate that I needed a snack, but there were plenty of healthy options. I decided to use the time by taking Michael's phone charger to him. I did that and then I nearly panicked about going to class without eating anything so I pulled into the McDonald's drive-through! Wha? What?! I knew that was evil, but with the amount of food I have been trying to eat I figured I could get one small thing and be okay.... THEN I looked at the calories on the menu and before I knew it I ordered an entire meal! Then I drove to the YMCA and sat in the car eating french fries in the parking lot! Then I left the sandwich in the car and went and did my class, then I came home and heated up the sandwich and ate it, and LOVED (capitals, bold) it.  I don't know if I am better off to plan ahead of time and know I will have one day a week when I will have a meal that is not so homemade and not so whole food, then to do it in a panicky way. Another time I planned to have french fries only once a week and that worked really well for me. Another time I remember saying to Leah at work "I don't remember the last time I ate a french fry." So I must have gone completely without for a long time and been okay. One good thing is that I was honest in the tracking of it and now blogging it, so I'm not hiding it.

Tomorrow is supposed to be Girls' Night out with my group, but I'm not sure if it is happening. I guess I will return and report.

Good night.

in both ways - that I've had a good night, and that I will be going to bed soon!

I made a yummy potato salad tonight and I posted it as my first recipe on "Just a pinch" I've posted photos on there when I have made other peoples' recipes, but I don't give away baking recipes, don't usually use cooking recipes, but decided when I made this to try to measure so I could figure the nutrition. I think it's really good! and healthy! and easy to make! Yay Me!

I will try to remember to post a link to it tomorrow. Nah - wait, here it is!

http://www.justapinch.com/recipes/side/potatoes/tangy-lower-fat-potato-salad.html

I planned to post a photo, but I suddenly can't find my camera cable. Humph! Well Gillian returned the one I had loaned her today. I will bring it home from work tomorrow and post my photos.

Water class again tomorrow so I need to go pack my bag - no excuses!

Starting...Now!

I took my first AquaFit class at the YMCA tonight. I went in with a lower backache and hoped it would stretch it out some. It still hurts, though. I am probably going to take some ibuprofen before I go to bed. I think it will be good for me and especially the act of getting back into the Y, as hoped for.

I took the day off work, partially so I'd have no excuses about going to this class tonight.

Tomorrow is back to work. Good/bad. I'm sure glad I worked a lot on the house over the weekend and it feels good to have it look nice.

Oops!

So much for blogging every day in 2013. Now my goal is to blog the REST of the days. I'm not going to do the perfectionist thing (bad P word) and give up!

I've had a great couple of days. I stayed home this weekend instead of going up to Lisa and John's to see the babies. Key portions of my house are really clean. The Christmas decorations are mostly put away and I have knitted and watched TV and taken naps both days. I am not going to work tomorrow. I have a meetup planned with a friend and then I plan to spend the rest of the day figuring out what to wear to my aquafit class in the evening. It means it is a NO EXCUSE day to begin my class. I can't be tired from work, or upset, or running late, or not have anything to wear. I WILL BE THERE. I feel kind of weenie, starting out with this old lady class, but I hope it can be sociable as well as get me back in the habit of going to the Y and getting wet, then I will start swimming again.  I've also joined a dinner group at UU church and I am hosting it in my first month! The groups and the hosts rotate so it will be a good way to get to know people. I meant to go to church today because I didn't go tp Carmel, but I slept too late - too late to go to 11:15 church is pretty severe.

Going to get to bed and get some sleep so I won't sleep that late tomorrow!
 
Good night!

R & R weekend.

Traci D Mitchell | Writer & Speaker: Fitness, Nutrition, Health

Gaining weight but eating healthy? Maybe it's stress.

If you felt stressed over the holidays, you may need a low key day of R & R. When you're in "fight or flight" mode (rushing to work, not getting enough quality sleep, letting the small stuff get to you, etc) your body increases the amount of adrenaline and cortisol released. This can - and usually does - lead to weight gain, often times in the belly.

If this sounds familiar, here are a few things you can do to get into "rest and digest" mode, which will help promote weight loss:

*Cut back on caffeine (one cup of Joe can elevate cortisol by 30%!)
*Sleep more, or if possible, take a nap a couple times a week
*Spend some time in a steam room, sauna or bath taking 10 DEEEEEEP breaths
*Eat a little more protein and a little less carbohydrate (you don't need more sugar)

...more tips coming on my blog soon!

I had already decided that I need to stay home from Lisa's and stay home from helping Mom in the apartment and this reenforced the correctness of my decision. 

I am terribly afraid the girlies will learn to walk this weekend and I will miss it, but that's life when you live 90 miles away!  

I did go shopping after work and bought yarn. I have been on a knitting kick this week already with 5 newborn hats already complete. I might make my annual goal of ten by this weekend. The next one I start will be at least regular baby size, though, and they take longer. Newborn hats just don't fit very long. I bought my yarn at Michael's instead of Walmart, and it costs just over a dollar more per skein. I'm not sure if my conscience feels $5 better, plus tax worth.  Think, if I had $5 more I could make a couple of more hats for the same money, which I usually give away to people who need them. Hmmm...

I plan to clean house on my own terms, watch  lot of "Heroes" on Netflix, nap whenever I want, and eat lots of yummy home cooked meals. I will return and report through the weekend.

Almost forgot!

and that would be a suckish third day, wouldn't it? I came home and settled in for the night tonight with no special activities except a stop at Dollar General for cleaning supplies. Probably nothing I couldn't have done without, honestly, but I was feeling spendy! Better to spend on things that I usually buy than to go out and do anything crazy!

My tummy was a little squishy today, but not pukey. I want to go see Lisa and John and the babies this weekend, so tomorrow I wanna come home and clean quickly. I've been lazy and shiftless this week with not feeling well.

Tonight's LIst

I had a list with seven to-dos on it. One of them was "Out w/Michael." The list became much shorter because when your 21 year old offspring will stay at a place and listen to soft, swingy jazz with you and then go to a store you make it last as long as it can. I admit he got free food and what he termed "hygiene supplies" out of the deal, but that works for me.

No puking today. A headache, but I started out the morning with neutral foods and worked my way up to a hamburger and all was good.

Posting, posting, posting.

I plan to post every day in 2013. It won't always be profound. It won't always be long, but it will always be.

I am having a rough year so far. I stayed home for NYE. Debbie came over and we watched a movie and stayed up until midnight, but didn't get wild at all.

I went to bed around 1:30, after just farting around for a while. I awakened at 3:30 or so with a sick stomach. It felt a lot the way it did last year when I was sick all the time, except, it also hurt a lot more. I was basically up the rest of the night trying to make it stop. I tried sipping water, warm baths, heating pad. Finally around 7:30 I got up and took a dose of phenergan.  Phenergan is a major anti-emetic. I woke up again at 9:30 and despite the drug vomited violently and copiously. After that I went back to sleep and woke up at almost 11:00 with a terrible headache. I got some sparkling apple juice, the only mild beverage I have and started sipping on that. I slept again until about 3:30 when I got up and took Tylenol with caffeine. Now I've slept until almost 6:00. I'm up now at almost 6:30 and I'm going to eat some fried potatoes and see how that goes. I guess I will hit the store tomorrow and get some ginger ale and arm myself with fruit snacks, etc to use to keep my sugar level if this gets bad again. The pain really scared me. I was really close to going to urgent care. I was thinking about how on MeYou Health some of the assessment questions have to do with basic access to health care. Right now I don't have a doctor, don't have refills to some of my meds, I'm out of test strips, which the insurance covers only if you get them with a prescription, and I'd have to go to Urgent care or the ER to get seen. Sigh.

I am going to try to keep track and see if I can figure out what might be triggering headaches and nausea. Last night I drank a bunch of Diet Orange Sunkist, because it tasted SO good. It's full of artifical colors, which I usually don't have. Hmmm.