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Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Cry laugh smile ouch Ahhh!

My friend Christie at work had a miscarriage of a very, very wanted baby. She is the other classified rep who is married to the other photographer and I love her a lot. I cried my head off...

While I was sitting at my desk literally SOBBING one of the male sales reps, Kurt walked over to throw something in the recycle can in front of my desk and asked, "Are your allergies bothering you a lot today?" which made me laugh hysterically at how someone could be so insensitive as to look past audible sobs, but Kurt is who Kurt is and if you knew, you'd probably just laugh too...

Nice dinner with Michael, Michael took off for Bike Project then Garet came over and kissed me a thousand times, then we walked for 26 minutes and had a lovely conversation and I cried a little more for Christie and Pete. When Garet brought me home I made him kiss me a hundred more times before I let him leave.

My feet are sore because I started out with swelling already today and some other yuckiness, but I know this is temporary and will pay off in the long run, right? I need to get back to Dr. Karin. Last time she did some stuff that was good for the lymphatic system and it helped the swelling for a while. I probably need to see Dr. Andry too. My meds probably need adjusting. I think my blood pressure is probably extremely low. I feel light-headed much of the time and on the verge of passing out, but I can't cut the diuretic because of the swelling... I can't afford to see him, though. It's $100 a pop and he doesn't take insurance. I need to wait until he won't renew my medicines anymore without an appointment before I go. Sigh...

I started doing my yoga DVD two nights ago. First night was terrible, second night I could complete my downward facing dog with my heels flat. I am anxious to get in there and do it again and see if I can get a little more balance and stretch in the triangle pose.

The end. So there.

5 comments:

Deb said...

I'm guessing you monitor your blood sugar levels to have ruled that out. So, if you don't have a blood pressure gizwhizzer (left coast medical term) of your own at home, stop by a CVS, Walgreen's or numbers of other pharmacy-inclusive stores to use one on the premises.

Not knowing what meds you're on, I am aware certain beta-blockers and others prescribed for lowering bp can have that effect over time.

Yes, heart disease is the number one killer of women. So, in the words of Larry the Cable Guy, "get er done."



Lighting a candle for your friend and co-worker's unexpected deep loss. XO

Hope said...

I can't use the BP monitors at the stores because of my OCD. I can't touch them. I'd have to go home and shower immediately afterward. For example, a customer grabbed my pen out of my hand yesterday and used it and I was debating if I would have to throw it away or if I used a disinfecting wipe on it if I could use it again (it was a favorite). I was grateful when she stole it and I didn't have to fight the dilemma. Now I have published on the WORLD WIDE WEB yet another example of my psychological problems.

I do take another BP med - Ramipril - but supposedly it is for the off-label effect it is supposed to have for diabetics of protecting the blood vessels of the kidneys. I wonder if I can go off of it because my sugars are VERY under control - usually in the low 100s, even after eating. I decided to try to make an appointment for next Thursday when I am already off work and go ahead and spend the money. Sigh... I am trying to learn to make my health care a priority again, thus the yoga, etc.

Amber said...

I'm sorry for your friend's loss. I'm happy Garret came and loved on you to help you feel better. I need to start doing yoga again.

Deb said...

Thank you (Envision a happy smiling heart icon, here)!

Deb said...

P.S. Do you recall a demand my husband strip inside the gate, not touch the door knob, the shower handle, anything unless or untill he was washed from head to toe. I was dousing everything in bleach water (including his pager--never did fess up 'bout that one having gone bad) during the anthrax scare. He mentioned he may have been exposed for what I deemed carelessness on the part of his big corporate company.

Some may say that's my psychological problem exposed on the worldwide web...

Pfft at 'em. I'm still chuckling the pager took a bath and the world wondered why it went kaputt! Hey, I dried if off... :D