Imagine Clever Title Here!

I know while I was in Water Class tonight I thought of different titles for a post and now I can't remember any!


Tonight was the perfect example of my psychoses about food and fat and weight. I had an hour to kill in between work and my class at the Y. I was sorely tempted to go get junk food. It was sort of legitimate that I needed a snack, but there were plenty of healthy options. I decided to use the time by taking Michael's phone charger to him. I did that and then I nearly panicked about going to class without eating anything so I pulled into the McDonald's drive-through! Wha? What?! I knew that was evil, but with the amount of food I have been trying to eat I figured I could get one small thing and be okay.... THEN I looked at the calories on the menu and before I knew it I ordered an entire meal! Then I drove to the YMCA and sat in the car eating french fries in the parking lot! Then I left the sandwich in the car and went and did my class, then I came home and heated up the sandwich and ate it, and LOVED (capitals, bold) it.  I don't know if I am better off to plan ahead of time and know I will have one day a week when I will have a meal that is not so homemade and not so whole food, then to do it in a panicky way. Another time I planned to have french fries only once a week and that worked really well for me. Another time I remember saying to Leah at work "I don't remember the last time I ate a french fry." So I must have gone completely without for a long time and been okay. One good thing is that I was honest in the tracking of it and now blogging it, so I'm not hiding it.

Tomorrow is supposed to be Girls' Night out with my group, but I'm not sure if it is happening. I guess I will return and report.